Wednesday, October 1, 2008

ONE YEAR LATER

Well today has been one crazy day for me. See it has been exactly One year since my daughters father passed away. And for me like all others when anyone whom you know or care out passes away you have emotions and sadness and experience grief. But it hit me today again. I really thought that I was over it. I mean Its sad I wish he had not passed but I thought Its been a year life goes on. But it hit me today and I found myself in the bathroom crying. I can not really share these feelings with anyone cause I do not even want to remind my daughter of what today is and upset her. and of course my Boyfriend would not understand why I am upset. I mean he was my Ex we had been broke up for 11 years why be sad but I am. It is funny even though he pissed me off a million times, But I miss his voice and his silly since of humor in so many ways. Is it crazy that I am sad? I am not sure. But ok I have vented enough so I guess I will close this out and get some opinions on it from you all. thanks for listening or reading this craziness.